so... not doing the blog thing very well

Seems like I barely am on here ever, so I'll be figuring out how to close this account...

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I need your help! 4 br 1 3/4 bath, ~1800 sq ft home for rent in Shelton

I'm trying to rent out my house in Shelton. If you know anyone who may interested, please pass on my information. Ad posted on Craigslist: http://seattle.craigslist.org/oly/apa/1176537279.html

The house was built in 1997

• split level
• 4 bedrooms
• 1 13/4 baths
• large family room
• lots of natural light
• in wall cadet heating
• stays cool in the summer
• double paned windows
• close to beautiful playground/park
• bilingual elementary school in the area

913 Bayview Loop, Shelton WA 98584

Entryway/landing

Kitchen - quarts tile countertops/Dining Room

Living Room (not a very good pic sorry)/Hallway/Upstairs Bathroom

Master Bedroom (has a small deck off the back & sliding pocket door to the bathroom /

Upstairs bedroom is painted yellow, one wall and ceiling (with about 2 in border) is blue

Downstairs - Family room is with of the house I also used part of this space as an office

Downstairs bedrooms (1 was used as a dark room, vinyl flooring, grey walls)

Backyard - lots of trees, greenary

Master bedroom carpet/ upstairs bedroom, family room, 1 downstairs bedrooms carptet / Master bath vinyl

Random Thoughts

It's been forever, I just can't think of things that anyone would possibly want to read ! lol
Christmas was nice - time with family and friends... Blessings and remindes that even though we all have our struggles, we pretty much have it good.

I miss Adam. He's in Arizona, not here, that sucks.

I wish I could spend more time with my family, but work just keeps getting in the way :-)

Count your blessings

I struggle with depression, but try to remember how incredibly blessed I am. I'm working really hard to get my finances straightened out, and to be the responsible adult example for my daughter. And things get me down, being a responsible adult can be difficult! It may take me a few days to remember now and then...but I have it pretty good:

I have a beautiful daughter who is happy and health and full of love and potential
I have family who loves me, and think of me, and want what's best for me,
I have a boyfriend who loves me and supports me and my daughter and treats us both well.
Friends who care about me, and let me care about them.
I have a job - that I actually enjoy, and get paid a decent wage for doing - benefits too
I have a warm place to live
Clothes on my back
Food in my stomach
Love in my heart.

Really - does it get much better than that?

Thank you for being one of my blessings.

Kids are simply amazing

I can't believe how cute kids can be, how amazingly insightful, how stressful, how overwhelming in every sense of the word a child can make your life.

As everything in life, things don't work out as planned with my pregnancy. I was planning on natural child birth (at least that was the plan... I'm not totally blind to the fact that I have no idea, and may have changed my mind at the onset of the worst pain I had experienced in my life.) Things had progressed normally, and I went to my apts like I was supposed to. On the day of my apt exactly one week overdue Feb 20th - they checked things out to come back with this line (I'll never forget it) "I don't think that's a head, that's parts." ..."now we just have to see if they're fingers or toes." Okay so I knew that with every pregnancy there are numerous possibilities for things going well, not right. I knew that babies aren't always in the position they need to be in. However - I had been told for several weeks that she looked good, and was in the right position. Had i not been told that several times, I would have kept that more in my mind. So they do an ultrasound, and yup... pronounced her a footling breech. She was standing upright. Since I was already having small contractions, and already a week overdue, they refused to try to turn her and scheduled us for a C section the next morning.

Surgery went without a hitch, and she was born with no complications. The nurses called her the 'beautiful baby' No joke, I would hear them in the halls asking each other, "have you seen the beautiful baby?" I was so proud. But my beautiful little baby wanted more than that already. People would hold her and tell her she was pretty or beautiful, and she'd cry - unless you added that she was smart too ;-) Gotta love that...

Now that her father and I are divorced, and I don't have her all the time, I realize how strong a parents' love for a child is. I've never experienced an emotion that strong. And there's nothing that matters as much as being able to provide for your child. There's no hope, like the hope that she become a strong, confident, happy, successful adult.

I'm not saying she's not difficult. On the contrary, if she wasn't so dang smart, I might be able to pull one over on her here and there, but you know, it's okay. Don't get me wrong... I'm worried about the future...lol but as long as she has good morals and values, she'll make good choices. I guess that's all I can ask...

A little cheese with my whine

OK, so I just have to whine a lil' and I'll get on with it.

What's the deal with trying to get back on track with bills that continually go up, but your pay doesn't? I'm not saying that the 'situation" I'm in is any one's fault but my own, but dang! I guess that's what you get when you make decisions, you know are not good ones, but do it anyway. I have so many bills that are just bombarding me from every side! and absolutely no easy way out! I'm not all about the easy way, but wouldn't it be well.. easier? lol

So enough about money... I try to remember that I have many many blessings, and that there are many who don't have it as good as I do. I have a good job, with good benefits; an amazing little girl who is intelligent, beautiful, and has her health; a boyfriend who loves me and supports me and my daughter; family that can't be beat (even though they decide to leave the state and not tell anyone....) and friends like no other! Who could ask for anything more than that?

I guess when it all comes down to it, I should just take Aurora's advice: "Don't worry about a thing mom, you're a Comcast customer!"

To comfort in time of loss...

I have a very good friend who lost someone dear to her. I just want to say, I know this is not the end for him, or you. I know as sure as I know anything that you will see him again.

Love ya...


To Those I Love and Those Who Love Me

When I am gone release me, let me go -
I have so many things to see and do.
You musn't tie yourself to me with tears
Be thankful for our many beautiful years.

I gave you my love, you can only guess
How much you gave to me in happiness.
I thank you for the love you each have shown
But now it's time I traveled on alone.

So grieve awhile for me if grieve you must
Then let your grief be comforted by trust.
It's only for awhile that we must part
So bless the memories within your heart.

I won't be faraway, for life goes onSo if you need me, call and I will come.
Though you can't see or touch me, I'll be near
And if you listen with your heart, you'll hear
All of my love around you soft and clear.

And then, when you must come this way alone,
I'll great you with a smile, and "Welcome Home".